An ulcer is not always an ulcer

No, not in this case. I was not getting better. In fact, I got progressively worse. I have not kept any food down in almost 2 weeks now. I have lost 12 lbs now since the 9th. Yup, 1lb each day.
So, my dr referred me out to a GI dr and they decided to preform a EGD, colonoscopy and ultrasound. I have been poked and prodded and after many invasive tests it has been concluded that I have gallstones. I see the surgeon on Monday. I am just thankful they found what is wrong and I am getting it fixed. I want to feel better. This vomiting thing is getting very old. So, sometime next week I should be one body part less. Hopefully this means I will start keeping a meal down.

Belly woes

I have been down for over a week now with an upset stomach. Ok, upset, is so NOT the word. If I don't eat, I feel terrible. If I eat, I feel HORRIBLE. I feel as if I ate nothing but glass. It has steadily been getting worse. I have tried talking myself into that it is just a virus and that it will go away. Some nights thru the week I even wake up choking on acid. Not fun. That has been going on for months now but I just chalked it up to a random upset stomach.

I finally break down and go to the dr. Yes, not shocking, she believes it to be an ulcer. Wow, why am I not shocked? Hmmmm, let's look at my life. I have 5 kids I take care of most of the time on my own, a mil that can't stand me and that does anything and everything possible to make my life miserable... what else? What else is needed, isn't that enough? I take many medicines on a daily basis to survive that is probably taking a great toll on my body. So, I'd say, yeah, not a shock. What is a shock is that it hasn't happened sooner. I guess there have been many warning signs I have been missing that could have prevented this pain today, but I ignored them. How typical of the "mom syndrome" huh?

So, she hands me my rx's and tells me to take it easy and "one final thing" she says "Are you under any extra stress?" . I just laugh. "What defines extra?" I say......

Lying no more, taking it no more

I have no tolerance for liars. They have no place in my life.

I have put up with one liar for too long and I am done. I have put up with it because I felt I had to. Well, no more. I am sick of what it has done to me, my kids and my marriage.

Mother in law, you will not see me at your house again. You will not be invited to mine. I will not talk to you voluntarily and I will not put myself in a position to listen to your lies ever again.

2 of my kids are with their father this week. That is hard enough. MIL decided she wanted to take a trip to a CRAFT MALL in ATLANTA. She wanted to take Tyler. She claims she really would take Kaleb, but he is too little and he wouldn't enjoy it. Fine, we accept and Tyler goes along his merry little way. ONLY, they didn't go to ATLANTA. They went to PIGEON FORGE,TN. When did TN enter into GA? They didn't go to a CRAFT MALL, they went on RIDES, SAW FIREWORKS, WENT SWIMMING. Please, tell me, how would Kaleb NOT have enjoyed that? She TOLD Tyler she didn't want him there. WE are the parents. WE should have made the decision on whether she could have played favorites with OUR children. She took that decision away from us the minute that LIE went thru her mouth. She took our child under false pretenses and alienated another. And, RAY, you wonder, why she called YOU instead of me? Because I can smell her BULLSHIT a mile away. Do I not find out her lies every single time she does them? And you, you make excuses for them every single time she does them. Her excuse, she will "make it up to Kaleb". Um yeah, like this weekend when she bailed on her "special" time with him? It will NEVER happen. You know why, because she only has room in her COLD ASS HEART for one child. Accept it. Problem is, our other children will
have to accept it too. It is one thing to have to tell my children, your step children, that they will
never receive love from her. But it is quite another to tell YOUR children that their OWN
grandmother can't find it in her heart to give them the same love they give Tyler. Why?
Why should they be punished? And what message does this send Tyler?

No more, I mean it. I am rid of her. I can tolerate her any more in my life. I am done with her crap. This may cause a huge rift in my family, but what are her lies doing? What is her favoritism doing? Everybody turns a blind eye to her and says "oh she just can't be changed"
Well, you know what. Neither can I. I never put up with liars before, and I won't start now. Sorry, hon, but the train stops here. I am DONE.